Lexie struggles with her weight but is learning how to trust her body again with Am I Hungry?
Posted on 05/09/2007 @ 12:40 PM
I have a lot of things on my plate these days...including food. Probably no coincidence.
In this moment, it's not about looking better, although I want that.
It's about FEELING better. I feel bad and I don't want to keep feeling like this. Everything I do takes so much more energy and there are so many other things I want to spend my energy on.
A few weeks ago I went to one of those pottery painting places and I painted a plate. I chose a salad sized plate because I know that a smaller portion satisfies my hunger. In the center of the plate I wrote the words, "Am I hungry?" to remind myself to think.
I can choose to eat only when I am hungry.
I can choose to stop eating when my hunger is satisfied.
I can remind myself of what it feels like when I overeat.
I can remind myself that food is always there when my body needs it and it doesn't have to be eaten now.
I can remind myself that food tastes best when I am hungry.
I can remind myself that the time to make the healthiest choice is this moment.
When I get scared about what losing weight might mean I can remind myself that making the choice today to not eat if I am not hungry is not going to radically and suddenly alter my life, and I can deal with any changes as they come.
What do I want? What am I capable of? For today I want to make the healthier choices. Tomorrow I can re-evaluate.