Lexie struggles with her weight but is learning how to trust her body again with Am I Hungry?
Posted on 02/27/2007 @ 11:31 PM
In less than two weeks, quitting smoking has gotten easier. Not EASY but easier. Who would have ever thought my battle with food would be so much bigger and harder?
Maybe that's an important thing to look at right there: BATTLE with FOOD
Lexie, STOP FIGHTING IT....find a way to work with it.
Fighting against myself has NEVER worked. Accepting and working on change has almost always worked.
I think most of my anger, irritation, frustration, upset with myself right now doesn't have a lot to do with food, eating, or exercise. I think I just feel a bit...."Off" and....unbalanced in life right now. Quitting smoking is major. Changing unhealthy eating habits is major. Forcing myself to be more social....I've got a lot going on and change can be hard and I'm dealing with most of it by eating.
I can even say to myself, like I did tonight, "I feel anxious and tired. Eating is NOT going to help me solve anything that I'm anxious about and I will not feel better emotionally if I eat. I KNOW it's true....and a few minutes later I'm in the kitchen....Why?
Why would I do that?
I don't want to deal with other things.
I don't know what to do about other things.
There are some things I can't change.
If I am such a control freak why am I not focusing on the things I CAN control? I can choose what I put into my body and I can choose when and how much I move my body. I can control that.
If it takes me ten years to get this straight in my head...as long as I keeep trying I'm moving in the right direction.