Lexie struggles with her weight but is learning how to trust her body again with Am I Hungry?
Posted on 01/17/2007 @ 7:39 PM
I need to journal now before I forget how bad this feels.
I went out to a late lunch today. Typically I've been doing better when I eat out right now. I guess because I've gotten better at ordering less and then not finishing what I've ordered.
Today I decided to get a full meal and save half of it for dinner. I was distracted while eating and ate more than I needed to satisfy my hunger. In the evenings I've been doing that more often but not to this extent. I had part of a hamburger, part of a container of chili, and part of a med. order of fries. I ordered water to drink and I didn't finish anything I ordered....and I still ate too much.
Now I feel awful. I feel bloated, my pants feel tight. I feel sluggish and just icky. I'm depressed because I did this. I'm irritated. The very worst part is the order wasn't right and it didn't taste very good. Yet I not only ate it, I ate more than I needed.
Part of the problem was I was too hungry. I didn't have good options for this morning and waited too long to go to lunch. Then I ordered more than I needed and didn't cut the portions in half first. Then I didn't give eating my full attention.
It was also a high anxiety time for me. I stopped at the pharmacy to pick up my nicotine patches for quitting smoking. Even though I want to quit and sometimes feel confident about it it also sometimes depresses me and almost always make me feel anxious. Doing that right before eating probably wasn't a good idea. I was thinking about the patches and quitting while I was eating.
Not a good idea.
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